Oh my how my time here has gone by! I have been too busy to sit down at the computer and blog about my days. I do keep a written journal though and may post blogs from previous days to catch you up. Things here are well. Packing is a tedioius thing to do when tired and drained. Emily said goodbye today. Her Dad came in town to drive home with her. It wasn't sad since we live only a few hours away from another. I hope to see her again. I changed cabins and am all settled in for now. Since I leave on Monday I'll be living out of the suitcase for the next day. There's no use of unpacking then repacking. Friday was the last day of the program and we traveled to the mall. It was interesting...they were frantically speed walking to "Justice" (which is similar to Limited Too) and purchased their Justin Bieber t-shirts. Then hurried down to Journeys to buy eye blasting colored, swagger shoes. The term swagger shoes is my own way of describing them to you, there is not relivence to them being or having "swagger," just to clarify...They had the Taminator and I running all over the place. Thankfully it was a refreshing workout after our lunch at the Olive Garden. :) Soup and salad with endless everything! Light but always filling!
This summer I felt like I was going through the motions and not fully grasping what I was doing here. About halfway I needed to do a heart check and really figure out the reasons for my being in Cherokee. I tried to control the program on my own, without God's guidance or comfort. It became so difficult and more of a job then an actual ministry. I didn't feel surrounded and encouraged by God's people, my sisters and brothers. I lost it.
I needed Him back and could desprately see that. It's still a process of seeing how I can't do things without Him. Having a peace of things that aren't of my own and knowing that it is out of my hands. For I can change nothing, only the Lord can. He holds us in His right hand, and calls us His child! I get warm fuzzys when I hear of His deep enduring love! Excited to get home soon. Debriefing in ATL for a few days then off to Orlando with Mummzy and Kaylee bird for HP World :) One thing I'm looking forward to about home: my oven!!
Ohhh Rebecca, my heart is smiling as i finished reading your post, i loved the ending about your Oven! And i also love relating things with one onther as a visual reminder in the days ahead, so with that i will leave you with this, when i think of making a cake, things have to be just right for you to get the results you are looking for, Most importantly the oven Tempeture, (heart temp) as well~ just the right amount of ingredints. when we leave out the baking soda what happens? Our cakes are flat. Well "you" my friend have been obedient to God this summer with your life & he has equipted you with just the right ingredients, (your talents & purpose in life), Rebecca, you have helped stir the batter) and now its time for them to keep there ovens clean and at just the right tempature to bake their cakes..Because it takes many different factors to make it succesfull, Sometimes we may not get the results we are hoping for, but thats ok, when we continue to strive and work hard at it, we will eventually get to enjoy a piece of the cake. When you look at your Oven, may you always be reminded of how you helped equipt these youg lives, helping to stir the right ingredients together, they have tasted the batter (Gods sweet & unconditonal Love & forgivness for them) and now its time for them to keep their temp. just right, so they can enjoy the frosting! As you get ready for debriefing may you prepare your heart for all that GOD has to show you, most importantly, that when each one of us do our part every single person (ingredIent) will help shape the world to be the results HE IS LONGING FOR~ A RELATIONSHIP with HIM!! Congraulations on a Job well done Rebecca, you have made a DIFFERANCE!! Jesus LOVES you and so do I..............
ReplyDeleteCan't wait to see you, sweet friend! Glad you are giving due attention to your heart - keep it up! We will have to do lunch/coffee/something when you are home!
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